Dear friends, thank you so much for all the beautiful words and wishes.
May God showers one and all with LOVE, PEACE, HAPPINESS and GOOD HEALTH.
May PEACE be with all.
God Bless.

Free me II

My dear Lord.....
fill my mind with your thoughts
for I believe
only your thoughts is bliss
only your thoughts is peace
fill my heart with your love
for I believe
only your love is true
only your love is eternal
fill my soul with your light
for I believe
only your light brightens my path
only your light lightens my life
only your thoughts is pure
only your love sustains
only your light remains
my dear Lord.......
help me to clear my clouded mind
free me now from my mental agitation.

.............................

One fine day, dearest friend of mine visited me and family at my parents place. It was a pleasant visit. Everyone was very excited especially my kids. We spent hours chatting about many things. It was wonderful. We had a great lunch together. After lunch, he asked me for a cup of coffee. It was my pleasure to mix a cup of coffee for him. Then, he left to Malacca to meet a friend. Not a word who and where. He promised to be back by 6 p.m. It was already very late in the evening but there was still no any sign of him. No phone calls no news. His number could not be reached. We started to worry and did not know whom to contact.
It was already 4 a.m. but still no news. A few days past by but still no news. He just disappeared and never came back. I have never thought that would be the last meet. No body knew what had happened to him, where was he and how was he.
Suddenly, i woke up and was in tears. It was just a dream. Eventhough it was just a dream, i felt it real. I pray to you my Lord, hope it will not become true because i know i can never take it and I am not ready to lose a wonderful friend.

Crimes against humanity

The human of dignity
have lost their virginity
the human of credibility
have lost their capability
human.........
have lost their humanity

Newborn

Sparkling lights in your eyes
in my heart tears of joys
sweet smiles on your lips
smiles of love in my eyes
the touch of your softness
melts away my sorrows
fragrant smell of yours
keeps me awake all nights
you my sweetest happiness
my newborn most precious.
(Posted elsewhere before)

My dearest friend...
you are....
very unique in nature
very kind and loving
very thoughtful too
and this award is for you
for your amazing friendship.
(You deserve it, cyclop)

Terrorist

Human......
sometimes....
cold blooded beast can ever be
life is meaningless as can be
lost the dignity
hopeless as can be
lost the credibility
helpless as can be
life been tarnished
love been vanished
peace...??
still exist?

Abandon child

Child.....
may speak thousands of words
interpretations may differ
at times may deceives too
thousands of mysteries hidden behind
innocent child.....
glows brightness warmth without flame
sparkles excitement with flashes of light
utters thousands of words coated with love
innocent child.....
glooms in the darkness cold with flame
yearns the tender feelings of affection
longs for peace, love and unity
child.....
there is still a life
there is still a hope.
( Posted elsewhere before)

We are.......
just like the doves.......
the closer You move towards Me
the further I move away
the closer I move towards You
the further You move away
We are just like the doves
I just wonder...........
fear of attachment?

Like a fish........
we swim through
the ocean of life
but then........
only to realize
danger awaits us
from every corner
women.........
fight for your rights.

In this world......
we are never alone
there is always a crowd around us
in life.......
we are dependent
we need each other
but sometimes....
we just want to be lone.
mood swing.

There is still a 'HOPE'

My dearest friend......
my heart goes out to you
and your loved one
so much of sorrow in your eyes
so much of pain in your words
just could not bear
to see you this way
I wish ......
to help but I am helpless
I wish......
to change the present
but I am left without a choice
please be strong
please stand strong
do not give up
do not break down
I am always here
as a shoulder to cry on
together we pray
as one soul and one heart
for the very best.

Gift

A wonderful wood carving
hanging on the wall
capturing my eyes
jogging in my mind
reminding me of a friend
a wonderful friend
all the times
staying in my heart
and forever will
a pretty gift
from a dear one.

Old vs New

Old books.......
seldom jog in the mind
only in touch sometimes
the interesting ones
arranged in the shelves
the dull ones
invisible to the naked eyes
placed in a box tightly sealed
one day.......
when the thought comes
the shelves are touched
the box is unsealed
then comes......the
new books.......
visible to the naked eyes
always jog in the mind
in touch all the times
placed close to the heart.
old friends......
new friends......

Where?

In search of pure love
you sailed through the ocean
ocean of life full of mysteries
many a time you were drowned
as you danced to the rhythm of life
but again your desire for love
kept you going
until one day.......
you found the precious pearl
the pearl of love and beauty
your life was a complete love
but then........
the nature worked the opposite
again you were drowned
in the cruelty of the ocean
the precious pearl of love and beauty
slipped away from your tight embrace
once again you started your journey
sailing through the ocean of life
in search of love
is there an ending?

Possessive pronouns??

YOU are what YOU are
but.....
YOU are not YOURS
I am what I am
but.....
I am not MINE.
YOU and I belong to 'HIM'
so......please remember
WE are 'HIS'.
(This post is not only about grammatical item but it is more than that.)

What do you see? vs What do you think?

What do you see?
do the lines determine......

ones life and death?

do the lines determine......

ones past, present and future?

what do you think?

are fate and destiny.......

printed on the palm?

??

I just do not know why I came up with this piece of work.
Life is full of colours and shapes.
One has to choose them wisely to mould ones life.

Memorable gift

Last night, as I was going through all my old mails and greeting cards, I spotted this beautiful and memorable gift. It was sent to me by a very dear and special friend. It has been 5 years since I received this beautiful gift. I still preserve and treasure it very much. The messages on the gift:-

" THANKS FOR BEING A GOOD FRIEND
THANKS FOR THE CARDS
THANKS FOR THE SUPPORTS
THANKS FOR THE CALLS
THANKS FOR BEING NICE
HOPE YOU LIKE THIS ARTIFICIAL FLOWERS"
My dear friend, I wish to convey the same messages to you and they are deep from my heart. Last but not least, I just wish to respond to the last line "HOPE YOU LIKE THIS ARTIFICIAL FLOWERS"
My dear friend, the flowers maybe artificial but our friendship is "genuine".
Thank you for the beautiful friendship. God Bless.

My Birthday

Delicious chocolate fudge

My wonderful prince and princess

My charming son

Wonderful, loving and understanding hubby

Allow me

My dear one........
how I wished
I could read your mind
how I wished
I knew what was in your mind
my dear one........
please allow me
to swim through your mind
and merge with your thoughts
to enlighten you
to help clear your clouded mind
and make you feel a lot more better
my dear one........
if not today or tomorrow
maybe one fine day
do allow me
to merge with your thoughts.

Knowledge

As my eyes scan through
your inner body
from left to right
from top to bottom
you are pregnant with words
I could grasp the speciality in you
you give meaning to my life
without you.......
I am not what I am
you the book
the priceless gift.

Mind travels

In the dark
lying on the bed
with my arm on my forehead
staring at the ceiling
pampering my thoughts of you
you.........The Past.

In the dark

What is wrong with me, my friend?
sometimes..........
I feel very low
I feel so lonely
though I am not alone
I feel something is missing
though I feel I have everything
What is wrong with me, my friend?
sometimes..........
I could feel the distance
like you are moving away
though I know, you are there
I feel that you just do not care
though I know you care
What is wrong with me, my friend?
when the thought of you
come into my mind
I feel very heavy deep inside
my heart starts to drizzle
my eyes full of tears
it is so painful
What is wrong with me, my friend?

Thrilling tears

As my fingers touch your skin
I could feel the smoothness
you are safe and sound
with some layers surrounding you
I have no choice only to remove the layers
as i remove the layers one by one
I could see your shining texture glows
your inner smoothness and shines
obviously visible to my naked eyes
though heavy deep inside
I have to slice your body into pieces
as I slice your body
the strong aroma gets into my nose
my eyes too started to be in tears
tears keep rolling on my cheeks
how thrilling......
slicing an onion.
:))

Mystery

Roots held in the soil
trunk splitted into branches
leaves attached to the twigs
natural enigma
the.......UNIVERSE.

Tears of the nature

You.......
the priceless tears
full of joy
cooling and refreshing
gives a new hope to some
You.......
the painful tears
full of miseries
shattering and torturing
gives a dark hope to some
you.......THE RAIN

Misery

My friend.......
in your eyes so much sorrow
in your words so much pain
hidden within the sorrow
a smile without a glow
a life without a flow
i know friend......
it's not easy though.

More wisdom

An old owl am becoming
a wise old ones
sitting in an oak
in the silence of darkness
the more i hear the less i speak
the less i speak the more i hear
a wise decision i have taken.
( It is a repost )

May not know

My dear friend.....
you may not know
how glad I feel
each time you message me
you may not know
how wonderful I feel
each time you call me
you may not know
how special I feel
each time you ask me to call
you may not know
because.....
I have never told you my friend
thank you friend for being a friend.

Temporary.........:)

Sexy or........gorgeous
pretty or........beautiful
slim or.........slender
all those descriptions
are just physical beauty
man's first impression
man's first attraction
that.......
stays in the eyes
that......
stays in the mind
physical beauty is......
but....
temporary
fades away gradually
inner beauty is........
but.......
eternal
sustains forever
in the heart.

Guilty

Tragedy of the past.........
keeps haunting me to this very day
though I have tried for years
just to let it go
just to erase from my mind
it keeps coming more and more
only if.......
I was there a little early
I could have saved your life
only if.......
I was there a few minutes earlier
you would have listened to me
only if ......
I was there when you needed me the most
I could have helped to change your destiny
only if......
I knew what was in your mind
you wouldn't have ended your life
you.......
my so called brother....
left me forever
and here I am
feeling guilty for I had failed to be there
please forgive me my brother
but.....
why suicide??:(((((
(May your soul rest in peace)

Let it be

I have a friend.......
one moment very loving and caring
another moment very cold and mean
many times i wonder
finally I surrender
all those are human nature.

He........buzzes

He.........
buzzes around the beauty
of the sweet smelling roses
from one to the other
satisfies his burning desire of lust
quenches his dying thirst of love
relishes the sweet taste of roses
just to fulfil his emptiness
to survive his lonliness
he.......the 'Wild Bee'

Solved

For many months
I puzzled my brain
thinking.........
why?
why such a reaction
from the person that I know
only yesterday......
I understood the reason
everything became clear
the puzzle no more
so........
the truth is that TRUTH IS
it's time for us to part
it's time to say good bye
maybe just for a while.

In search

What is God?
or......
Who is God?
Does he really exist?
or......
Does she really exist?
If one feels his/her presence
If one sees his/her existence
then........
Why is the suffering on earth?
Why is there no peace?
Is it because of bad karma?
Even if it is bad karma
Is God not forgiving?
or......
Is he/she in deep slumber land?
(*These thoughts have been bugging me since Friday, 11th.July 2008. After a long telephone conversation with a friend.*)

Meant to be

Yesterday was the past
that kept you in the darkness
so my dear one
leave the past
today is the present
that garlands you with sweetness
so my dear one
live the present
tomorrow is the future
that keeps you going
so my dear one
welcome the future
though words and actions
are two different things
this is the truth
this is life
part and parcel of life.

Congratulations!

Hardwork and struggles........
the sleepless nights........
the restless moments.........
everything is gone for now
with a broad smile and a light heart
garland with lots of happiness and smiles
a wonderful day to be celebrated
a special day to be remembered
a day of victory and success
a day of achievement and fulfilment
and here comes the crown of success
HAPPY GRADUATION DAY my dear friend
My best wishes coated with love and care.

My internet friend cum my good friend

I have an internet friend whom I value so much. This friend, plays a very important part in my life. I first met my friend online in year 2001. For the first few years we used to chat online very often. Nowadays, we do not meet online at all. At present, we only keep in touch through sms and calls.

Sometimes, there would be a long gap or I would rather say a long pause. No any news at all and I would sit here wondering what went wrong. Many a time I was very hurt and annoyed but now I understand my friend better. As a friend I should be more understanding and accept my friend as how my friend is. I can understand that sometimes my friend would be busy and sometimes have mood swings. Maybe wants to be alone too. I would say that I am so used to the situation. :)) I just leave it as it is because I love my friend a lot. I really mean it.

We have met only twice. The first was when my friend came for a seminar in October 2002. It was a very brief meeting.:)) Then, again it was in December 2003. I went with my family to my friend's place. Met my friend's family members. It was a beautiful moments. When first I entered the house, I felt that I have been there before. Very familiar to me. It was very special. I always cherish those moments.

I always feel very comfortable talking to my friend. I have never felt so comfortable talking to any friends before or maybe I do not keep close friendship with anyone. We talk about a lot of things but we do not interfere in each others personal matters. My friend is a very private person, so I respect and appreciate that. I admire my friend until to this very moment. A very determine, understanding, loving, caring, patient and wonderful person. I have never met anyone like that before. This type of friend is very rare. Sometimes, I ask myself ' do I know this friend in my previous life'. This sounds weird, right? I could feel some kind of special bond and I do not know how to explain it. It is like a mystery. Unsolved mystery. Many a time we called or sms at the same time. I am not sure if telepathy works or just coincidence. :) I have a lot more to write about my good friend but not today.

To be continued.............( maybe one fine day)
(My dear friend, this is specially for you)

Rules

Singular subject is followed by singular verb
She is......
He is.......
She does........
He does.........
She has.........
He has..........
Plural subjects are followed by plural verbs
They are.......
We are.........
They do.......
We do.........
They have.........
We have...........
but..............
YOU and I are exceptional
very special indeed
These are called the rules of grammar.

It bleeds II

Why should I tell you?
Why are you bothered to know?
”What is your relationship with him?”
“HE” is nobody’s husband and “I”(SHE) is nobody’s wife”
” I feel you are trying to take away my freedom”
” I feel you are trying to control me”
The statements that came from someone that I consider as a friend
The statements that really broke my heart into pieces
An emotional fool I am
Do I deserve those statements?
Just because I asked her “ Why did you say “NO” to me when I asked earlier?
”My dear friend said…..it was my mistake
Maybe he was right
it was my fault
real blunder
Maybe I expected too much
Maybe I did not think of her situation
Or…….
Maybe I took her for granted.
Whatever it was……
I did apologise
But……….
The scars do bleed sometimes.

Mere words

Meaning of words differ
some spelt the same
some spelt differently
SORRY and THANK YOU
two different words
two different meanings
social expressions they are
magic words they are
but.........
losing their magicness
mere words are they?

It bleeds

............when a stranger
throws words on your face
it's still acceptable
couldn't careless
but.............when a friend
throws words on your face
it's terrible
it's humilating
it's embarrasing
tears keep rolling
heart keeps sinking
it starts bleeding
it's very hurting.

Mush + Rooms

Keeps the doctor away:)

The power of light

Beautiful rays of golden light

keeps the seeds warm in the earth

absorbs the light and the warmth

helps them to stir and awaken

occurs the miracles of life

....the new life.

The sweetness of life

Different essence of life

Natural attachment are these?

White roses so precious
as.........
the memories are still fresh.

Life

Life........

a piece of plain canvas

some colours needed

to colour the life

some touches needed

to give life to the lives.

Flowers in tears

Choice is yours

To see or not to see

to be or not to be

to live or not to live

ways there are too many

choose one wisely

choice is yours finally.

Present state of mind

Disturbed

Lately.......

touchy the kind of feelings

keeps haunting my sleeps

my brain keeps thinking

my mind keeps wondering

when is the ending.

You......the E...

You are too precious
without you........
darkness is everywhere
without you.......
day and night
seems to be the same
without you.......
black is the only colour
without you........
is there light beyond the darkness?
you.........the EYES

Still a mystery

At this very moment....
the thought of you
my dearest friend
coming again
into my mind
tears in my eyes
pain in my chest
the kind of feelings
no words to describe
I could feel my friend
between you and me
there is a special bond
there is a hidden mystery
have I known you before?
still a mystery
unsolved mystery.
( I have posted this poem before. Just that, the first and fourth lines are different. The reason I am posting it again because at this very moment I am feeling exactly the same as before. My dearest friend hope you are reading it )

Discovery

You and I.....most of the time
.....assume knowing ourselves
know who we really are
reality....our mind is unknown territory
you and I......rarely explore
the depths of our unconscious
fail to ask....
the meaning of our existence
fail to realise....
the purpose of our existence
you and I.......survive on the surface
surface of our lives
reality....
you and I........strangers even to ourselves

Consciousness within...

What shall I say?
to wish you only the best
you deserve it
you have always been a mystery
since the moment I saw you
since the moment I got to know you
that's what made you so special
that unique reserve smile of yours
it's very intriguing
what shall I say?
don't ever lose it
don't ever change it
a piece of advice
control your destiny
never lose your individualism
never lose your independence
once you lose it
once you let another controls it
once you let another dictates it
you lose your self respect
what shall I say?
hold on to it tightly
you.....my conscience.

I found

In search of love
I drifted on
from dawn till dusk
from dusk till dawn
then.......one day
I felt his presence
all I knew
I have found
something I wanted
something called love
and HIM I have found.

Shadow

The shawl......
symbol of pride
has lost its dignity
has lost its virginity
regret the life
live or suicide?

Selfish

You have become selfish
when.......
your heart refused to
reveal your feelings for me
your fingers refused to
scribble your love for me
your hearing refused to
listen to my voices
your mind refused to
think of me
your senses refused to
crave for my love
and....today.....true
you have become selfish.

Wishes on your special day

You....my dear friend
a friend in need
a friend in deed
you are always there
in my happiness
in my sadness
sharing the good times
and the bad times
you.... a wonderful friend
with so much of care and love
I just could not thank you much
for everything you have done for me
i will always treasure your friendship
and as 20th. January is a special day
i wish you 'Many More Happy Returns Of The Day'
may God Bless you
showers you with lots of love
happiness and good health
love you as always my dear friend.
(Special dedication to a dear friend who means a lot to me)

Memories

Under the beautiful blue sky
a scent of cool breeze
slowly hits the graceful waves
your romantic gaze
whispers passionate 'Love'
and makes me smile
those tender loving moments
witnessed by the moon
and the galaxy of stars
swearing and promising
to live and die
till the end.
(Specially dedicated to my beloved hubby)