Knowledge

As my eyes scan through
your inner body
from left to right
from top to bottom
you are pregnant with words
I could grasp the speciality in you
you give meaning to my life
without you.......
I am not what I am
you the book
the priceless gift.

Mind travels

In the dark
lying on the bed
with my arm on my forehead
staring at the ceiling
pampering my thoughts of you
you.........The Past.

In the dark

What is wrong with me, my friend?
sometimes..........
I feel very low
I feel so lonely
though I am not alone
I feel something is missing
though I feel I have everything
What is wrong with me, my friend?
sometimes..........
I could feel the distance
like you are moving away
though I know, you are there
I feel that you just do not care
though I know you care
What is wrong with me, my friend?
when the thought of you
come into my mind
I feel very heavy deep inside
my heart starts to drizzle
my eyes full of tears
it is so painful
What is wrong with me, my friend?

Thrilling tears

As my fingers touch your skin
I could feel the smoothness
you are safe and sound
with some layers surrounding you
I have no choice only to remove the layers
as i remove the layers one by one
I could see your shining texture glows
your inner smoothness and shines
obviously visible to my naked eyes
though heavy deep inside
I have to slice your body into pieces
as I slice your body
the strong aroma gets into my nose
my eyes too started to be in tears
tears keep rolling on my cheeks
how thrilling......
slicing an onion.
:))

Mystery

Roots held in the soil
trunk splitted into branches
leaves attached to the twigs
natural enigma
the.......UNIVERSE.

Tears of the nature

You.......
the priceless tears
full of joy
cooling and refreshing
gives a new hope to some
You.......
the painful tears
full of miseries
shattering and torturing
gives a dark hope to some
you.......THE RAIN

Misery

My friend.......
in your eyes so much sorrow
in your words so much pain
hidden within the sorrow
a smile without a glow
a life without a flow
i know friend......
it's not easy though.

More wisdom

An old owl am becoming
a wise old ones
sitting in an oak
in the silence of darkness
the more i hear the less i speak
the less i speak the more i hear
a wise decision i have taken.
( It is a repost )

May not know

My dear friend.....
you may not know
how glad I feel
each time you message me
you may not know
how wonderful I feel
each time you call me
you may not know
how special I feel
each time you ask me to call
you may not know
because.....
I have never told you my friend
thank you friend for being a friend.

Temporary.........:)

Sexy or........gorgeous
pretty or........beautiful
slim or.........slender
all those descriptions
are just physical beauty
man's first impression
man's first attraction
that.......
stays in the eyes
that......
stays in the mind
physical beauty is......
but....
temporary
fades away gradually
inner beauty is........
but.......
eternal
sustains forever
in the heart.

Guilty

Tragedy of the past.........
keeps haunting me to this very day
though I have tried for years
just to let it go
just to erase from my mind
it keeps coming more and more
only if.......
I was there a little early
I could have saved your life
only if.......
I was there a few minutes earlier
you would have listened to me
only if ......
I was there when you needed me the most
I could have helped to change your destiny
only if......
I knew what was in your mind
you wouldn't have ended your life
you.......
my so called brother....
left me forever
and here I am
feeling guilty for I had failed to be there
please forgive me my brother
but.....
why suicide??:(((((
(May your soul rest in peace)

Let it be

I have a friend.......
one moment very loving and caring
another moment very cold and mean
many times i wonder
finally I surrender
all those are human nature.

He........buzzes

He.........
buzzes around the beauty
of the sweet smelling roses
from one to the other
satisfies his burning desire of lust
quenches his dying thirst of love
relishes the sweet taste of roses
just to fulfil his emptiness
to survive his lonliness
he.......the 'Wild Bee'

Solved

For many months
I puzzled my brain
thinking.........
why?
why such a reaction
from the person that I know
only yesterday......
I understood the reason
everything became clear
the puzzle no more
so........
the truth is that TRUTH IS
it's time for us to part
it's time to say good bye
maybe just for a while.

In search

What is God?
or......
Who is God?
Does he really exist?
or......
Does she really exist?
If one feels his/her presence
If one sees his/her existence
then........
Why is the suffering on earth?
Why is there no peace?
Is it because of bad karma?
Even if it is bad karma
Is God not forgiving?
or......
Is he/she in deep slumber land?
(*These thoughts have been bugging me since Friday, 11th.July 2008. After a long telephone conversation with a friend.*)

Meant to be

Yesterday was the past
that kept you in the darkness
so my dear one
leave the past
today is the present
that garlands you with sweetness
so my dear one
live the present
tomorrow is the future
that keeps you going
so my dear one
welcome the future
though words and actions
are two different things
this is the truth
this is life
part and parcel of life.

Congratulations!

Hardwork and struggles........
the sleepless nights........
the restless moments.........
everything is gone for now
with a broad smile and a light heart
garland with lots of happiness and smiles
a wonderful day to be celebrated
a special day to be remembered
a day of victory and success
a day of achievement and fulfilment
and here comes the crown of success
HAPPY GRADUATION DAY my dear friend
My best wishes coated with love and care.

My internet friend cum my good friend

I have an internet friend whom I value so much. This friend, plays a very important part in my life. I first met my friend online in year 2001. For the first few years we used to chat online very often. Nowadays, we do not meet online at all. At present, we only keep in touch through sms and calls.

Sometimes, there would be a long gap or I would rather say a long pause. No any news at all and I would sit here wondering what went wrong. Many a time I was very hurt and annoyed but now I understand my friend better. As a friend I should be more understanding and accept my friend as how my friend is. I can understand that sometimes my friend would be busy and sometimes have mood swings. Maybe wants to be alone too. I would say that I am so used to the situation. :)) I just leave it as it is because I love my friend a lot. I really mean it.

We have met only twice. The first was when my friend came for a seminar in October 2002. It was a very brief meeting.:)) Then, again it was in December 2003. I went with my family to my friend's place. Met my friend's family members. It was a beautiful moments. When first I entered the house, I felt that I have been there before. Very familiar to me. It was very special. I always cherish those moments.

I always feel very comfortable talking to my friend. I have never felt so comfortable talking to any friends before or maybe I do not keep close friendship with anyone. We talk about a lot of things but we do not interfere in each others personal matters. My friend is a very private person, so I respect and appreciate that. I admire my friend until to this very moment. A very determine, understanding, loving, caring, patient and wonderful person. I have never met anyone like that before. This type of friend is very rare. Sometimes, I ask myself ' do I know this friend in my previous life'. This sounds weird, right? I could feel some kind of special bond and I do not know how to explain it. It is like a mystery. Unsolved mystery. Many a time we called or sms at the same time. I am not sure if telepathy works or just coincidence. :) I have a lot more to write about my good friend but not today.

To be continued.............( maybe one fine day)
(My dear friend, this is specially for you)

Rules

Singular subject is followed by singular verb
She is......
He is.......
She does........
He does.........
She has.........
He has..........
Plural subjects are followed by plural verbs
They are.......
We are.........
They do.......
We do.........
They have.........
We have...........
but..............
YOU and I are exceptional
very special indeed
These are called the rules of grammar.

It bleeds II

Why should I tell you?
Why are you bothered to know?
”What is your relationship with him?”
“HE” is nobody’s husband and “I”(SHE) is nobody’s wife”
” I feel you are trying to take away my freedom”
” I feel you are trying to control me”
The statements that came from someone that I consider as a friend
The statements that really broke my heart into pieces
An emotional fool I am
Do I deserve those statements?
Just because I asked her “ Why did you say “NO” to me when I asked earlier?
”My dear friend said…..it was my mistake
Maybe he was right
it was my fault
real blunder
Maybe I expected too much
Maybe I did not think of her situation
Or…….
Maybe I took her for granted.
Whatever it was……
I did apologise
But……….
The scars do bleed sometimes.