Meant to be

Yesterday was the past
that kept you in the darkness
so my dear one
leave the past
today is the present
that garlands you with sweetness
so my dear one
live the present
tomorrow is the future
that keeps you going
so my dear one
welcome the future
though words and actions
are two different things
this is the truth
this is life
part and parcel of life.

Congratulations!

Hardwork and struggles........
the sleepless nights........
the restless moments.........
everything is gone for now
with a broad smile and a light heart
garland with lots of happiness and smiles
a wonderful day to be celebrated
a special day to be remembered
a day of victory and success
a day of achievement and fulfilment
and here comes the crown of success
HAPPY GRADUATION DAY my dear friend
My best wishes coated with love and care.

My internet friend cum my good friend

I have an internet friend whom I value so much. This friend, plays a very important part in my life. I first met my friend online in year 2001. For the first few years we used to chat online very often. Nowadays, we do not meet online at all. At present, we only keep in touch through sms and calls.

Sometimes, there would be a long gap or I would rather say a long pause. No any news at all and I would sit here wondering what went wrong. Many a time I was very hurt and annoyed but now I understand my friend better. As a friend I should be more understanding and accept my friend as how my friend is. I can understand that sometimes my friend would be busy and sometimes have mood swings. Maybe wants to be alone too. I would say that I am so used to the situation. :)) I just leave it as it is because I love my friend a lot. I really mean it.

We have met only twice. The first was when my friend came for a seminar in October 2002. It was a very brief meeting.:)) Then, again it was in December 2003. I went with my family to my friend's place. Met my friend's family members. It was a beautiful moments. When first I entered the house, I felt that I have been there before. Very familiar to me. It was very special. I always cherish those moments.

I always feel very comfortable talking to my friend. I have never felt so comfortable talking to any friends before or maybe I do not keep close friendship with anyone. We talk about a lot of things but we do not interfere in each others personal matters. My friend is a very private person, so I respect and appreciate that. I admire my friend until to this very moment. A very determine, understanding, loving, caring, patient and wonderful person. I have never met anyone like that before. This type of friend is very rare. Sometimes, I ask myself ' do I know this friend in my previous life'. This sounds weird, right? I could feel some kind of special bond and I do not know how to explain it. It is like a mystery. Unsolved mystery. Many a time we called or sms at the same time. I am not sure if telepathy works or just coincidence. :) I have a lot more to write about my good friend but not today.

To be continued.............( maybe one fine day)
(My dear friend, this is specially for you)

Rules

Singular subject is followed by singular verb
She is......
He is.......
She does........
He does.........
She has.........
He has..........
Plural subjects are followed by plural verbs
They are.......
We are.........
They do.......
We do.........
They have.........
We have...........
but..............
YOU and I are exceptional
very special indeed
These are called the rules of grammar.

It bleeds II

Why should I tell you?
Why are you bothered to know?
”What is your relationship with him?”
“HE” is nobody’s husband and “I”(SHE) is nobody’s wife”
” I feel you are trying to take away my freedom”
” I feel you are trying to control me”
The statements that came from someone that I consider as a friend
The statements that really broke my heart into pieces
An emotional fool I am
Do I deserve those statements?
Just because I asked her “ Why did you say “NO” to me when I asked earlier?
”My dear friend said…..it was my mistake
Maybe he was right
it was my fault
real blunder
Maybe I expected too much
Maybe I did not think of her situation
Or…….
Maybe I took her for granted.
Whatever it was……
I did apologise
But……….
The scars do bleed sometimes.

Mere words

Meaning of words differ
some spelt the same
some spelt differently
SORRY and THANK YOU
two different words
two different meanings
social expressions they are
magic words they are
but.........
losing their magicness
mere words are they?

It bleeds

............when a stranger
throws words on your face
it's still acceptable
couldn't careless
but.............when a friend
throws words on your face
it's terrible
it's humilating
it's embarrasing
tears keep rolling
heart keeps sinking
it starts bleeding
it's very hurting.

Mush + Rooms

Keeps the doctor away:)

The power of light

Beautiful rays of golden light

keeps the seeds warm in the earth

absorbs the light and the warmth

helps them to stir and awaken

occurs the miracles of life

....the new life.

The sweetness of life

Different essence of life

Natural attachment are these?

White roses so precious
as.........
the memories are still fresh.

Life

Life........

a piece of plain canvas

some colours needed

to colour the life

some touches needed

to give life to the lives.

Flowers in tears

Choice is yours

To see or not to see

to be or not to be

to live or not to live

ways there are too many

choose one wisely

choice is yours finally.

Present state of mind

Disturbed

Lately.......

touchy the kind of feelings

keeps haunting my sleeps

my brain keeps thinking

my mind keeps wondering

when is the ending.

You......the E...

You are too precious
without you........
darkness is everywhere
without you.......
day and night
seems to be the same
without you.......
black is the only colour
without you........
is there light beyond the darkness?
you.........the EYES

Still a mystery

At this very moment....
the thought of you
my dearest friend
coming again
into my mind
tears in my eyes
pain in my chest
the kind of feelings
no words to describe
I could feel my friend
between you and me
there is a special bond
there is a hidden mystery
have I known you before?
still a mystery
unsolved mystery.
( I have posted this poem before. Just that, the first and fourth lines are different. The reason I am posting it again because at this very moment I am feeling exactly the same as before. My dearest friend hope you are reading it )

Discovery

You and I.....most of the time
.....assume knowing ourselves
know who we really are
reality....our mind is unknown territory
you and I......rarely explore
the depths of our unconscious
fail to ask....
the meaning of our existence
fail to realise....
the purpose of our existence
you and I.......survive on the surface
surface of our lives
reality....
you and I........strangers even to ourselves

Consciousness within...

What shall I say?
to wish you only the best
you deserve it
you have always been a mystery
since the moment I saw you
since the moment I got to know you
that's what made you so special
that unique reserve smile of yours
it's very intriguing
what shall I say?
don't ever lose it
don't ever change it
a piece of advice
control your destiny
never lose your individualism
never lose your independence
once you lose it
once you let another controls it
once you let another dictates it
you lose your self respect
what shall I say?
hold on to it tightly
you.....my conscience.

I found

In search of love
I drifted on
from dawn till dusk
from dusk till dawn
then.......one day
I felt his presence
all I knew
I have found
something I wanted
something called love
and HIM I have found.

Shadow

The shawl......
symbol of pride
has lost its dignity
has lost its virginity
regret the life
live or suicide?

Selfish

You have become selfish
when.......
your heart refused to
reveal your feelings for me
your fingers refused to
scribble your love for me
your hearing refused to
listen to my voices
your mind refused to
think of me
your senses refused to
crave for my love
and....today.....true
you have become selfish.

Wishes on your special day

You....my dear friend
a friend in need
a friend in deed
you are always there
in my happiness
in my sadness
sharing the good times
and the bad times
you.... a wonderful friend
with so much of care and love
I just could not thank you much
for everything you have done for me
i will always treasure your friendship
and as 20th. January is a special day
i wish you 'Many More Happy Returns Of The Day'
may God Bless you
showers you with lots of love
happiness and good health
love you as always my dear friend.
(Special dedication to a dear friend who means a lot to me)

Memories

Under the beautiful blue sky
a scent of cool breeze
slowly hits the graceful waves
your romantic gaze
whispers passionate 'Love'
and makes me smile
those tender loving moments
witnessed by the moon
and the galaxy of stars
swearing and promising
to live and die
till the end.
(Specially dedicated to my beloved hubby)

One last poem for year 2007

To be with you
Beyond the joy and laughter......
only heard the whispers......
the voice calling me......
the breeze pampering me......
to be with you.....
take me now......my Lord.

Some poems from my old collections. Will take a break. Will be back in January. Merry Christmas to one and all.

Victim
Flower blooms in hurry
bees relish her honey
soon lost her virginity
her life a hidden mystery.


Law of nature vs karma
Creator of heaven and earth
doubtful existence
disaster after disaster
fearful existence
fearful people on deadly earth
earth banished in a second
suffering after suffering
innocent people vanished in a moment
torture after torture
living corpse everywhere
Creator of heaven and earth
you the planner
you the observer
you the creator
you the demolisher
but why?
why the innocent people?
do you call it law of nature?
do you call it karma?
need an answer.


Fated
30 minutes gone
waited in anxiety
60 minutes gone
started to worry
90 minutes gone
waited and waited
120 minutes gone
total stranger appeared
"he wants to talk", my sister said
tongue completely tied
a long silence.......
eyes shied away
thank you mirror mirror on the wall
saw the strangers reflection
gathered the courage
gained the confidence
uttered a few words
voice trembled
I mumbled
wh...at...happened?
why....late?
"caught in the traffic", he said
I smiled
I started to laugh
he too
"wait a minute", he said
"I am staying for lunch", he said
I was confused
I didn't know what was in his mind
"I like her", he said to his mum
no invitation
no sign
no insistence
no dream
it just happened
"love at first sight", he said
first experience, new experience
I felt the same
14 years ago.......
arranged marriage
that's how it started
sweet memories forever.

Injustice

Refugees are we?
in our own motherland.....
third class are we?
in our own motherland.....
have no rights do we?
to speak up and defend ourselves.....
have no rights do we?
to be treated equally.....
our voices heard by no one
democracy, peace and unity
are these mere words only?

Silence.........

Silence of you my dear friend
I felt so much nowadays
though I know the reasons
I just couldn't help it
for the thought of you
keep coming into my mind
missed you my friend.

Lost....

In the journey of your life
you are......but a refugee
running away from reality
drown in your own cruelty
at the end......
regretting your own insensibility.

The power of light

Beautiful rays of golden light
keeps the seeds warm in the earth
absorbs the light and the warmth
helps them to stir and awaken
occurs the miracles of life
....the new life.

(Inspiration came while reading "Wisdom through spirituality" written by Anthony Strano)

Memorial to love

Strong and firm
stands upright
symbolic love
...the Taj Mahal

The Golden Star

Morning smiles of yours
gives a glow on my face
brightens up my today
you.....the sun.

The rainbow

The clouds in tears
accompanied by the sun
in the freshness of morning
...the seven colours.

The fragrance beyond the nose by cyclopseven Ram

The poem below is very special to me and it comes from a very precious and special friend.
My dear friend you are always there for me in my good times and bad times. I have learnt a lot from you. Thank you for all those special things that you have done for me. Will always treasure your friendship. Thank you so much.

The fragrance beyond the nose by cyclopseven Ram:
"The fragrance beyond the nose

The fragrance beyond the nose
Where the wind blows
There goes the fragrance of the rose
Together with the wind
The fragrance becomes one.
The trees that swiftly caresses the wind
Together they hug the fragrance of the rose,
As they smell the rose’s breathe
They wish the fragrance remain with them to death.

Far and yonder beyond the hills that mounting high
The fragrance travel intertwined with the wind
Touching the tips of every plants along the way
While gently, brushing the animals across the plains.
Days that pass by leave the moments of joyous feelings
Remarkably soothing is the waft of this fragrance
Forever shall remain enshrined within the mine of my mind
To be welcomed with garlands colorful adorning the fragrance
because the fragrance that spread across the world is the friendship
that stitches the souls to become one in togetherness.

(Specially dedicated for my wonderful and colorful friend, Mary Das of Johor Baru, Malaysia.) ©cyclopseven. All rights reserved 021007. "

Missed you my friend

Last evening.......
the thoughts of you my friend
occupied my clouded mind
tears rolled down on my cheeks
the precious tears of love and cares
the silence of you my dear friend
I felt so much nowadays
I missed you my dear friend.

My dream

When....I close my eyes
I see you smile
the precious smile ever
and....my heart beats in joy
when....I open my eyes
the smile just disappear
oh...how I wish....
my eyes are close forever.

He.....flutters

He..........
flutters around the beauty
one womb to the other
fulfils his burning desire
quenches his dying thirst
relishes the sweet taste
to survive his daily life
he.........the butterfly.

Precious friend...

Precious.........
a friend full of respect and dignity
a friend in need and in deed forever
human friend of love and humanity
endless and eternal peace lover
a friend like you very rare buddy
doubt there will be one ever
remember you always in memory
a friend you are to me forever
may all good happens to you buddy
forget you my friend would never.

Guide me my Lord....

My dear Lord............
Grant me peace within my heart
help me to make a beautiful start
guide me to make a difference
make me understand
the reasons for my existence
bless me with courage
to voice what is right
guide me to make changes
bless me to do for better
allow me to accept all
for I trust you have the reasons
some mysterious I can't comprehend
I believe when the right time comes
you will send me the explanations
then help me to understand
guiding me in all my steps
before I depart.

Hibiscus

Hibiscus the flower of pride
In colour you said it right
Brilliant and beautiful to the eyes
In dignity you stood up right
Smiling and swaying nation wide
Calling all in peace to unite
Unique flower in petals of five
Symbol of Malaysia nation wide.

Malaysia

Multi racial my country, Malaysia
A nation strong and powerful indeed
Land rich in peace,unity and dignity
All people live in perfect harmony ever
Young and old work hand in hand
Strives to be recognised beauty indeed
In the eyes of the world fast forward
A successful nation, a respected nation.

( Happy Independence Day- 31st.August)

Unexpected

Never had thought my friend
statement of mine would.....
cut like a razor
words of mine would......
pierce like a needle
abuse you my friend
not at all my intention
my experiences of past
always there as a reminder
telling me to be alert all the times
how could I......
a blunder I became this time
please forgive me my friend.

You my friend

Once a total stranger
my mind used to wonder
who are you?
what are you?
analytical you are
critical you are
eyes can never meet
but.........
deep in my heart
I could feel
a total stranger
with........
so much of care
so much of love
so much of kindness
a total stranger
heart full of friendship
YOU........THE KNOWN STRANGER.

Graduation Day

Graduation Day (July 29,2007)

A day to part

Away from scholarly books

And mind boggling journals

Running words and trawling letters

Leaving behind the assignment

And examinations.

Graduation day

A fulfillment of recognition

Granted to measure the tough journey

Traveled in months and years

Browsing pages of papers

Now, insignificantly lie somewhere.

The sleepless nights

The restless moments

All have vanished with the crown

Received on this day.

A lot of happy smiles

And tears exchanged

During these periods,

But all joined together

To commemorate the hardship endured

To beat many through the journey

And come out the best among many.

The fear of losing the battle

And the agony of anticipation

Are all but flimsy tattles

Of this illusive mind

But never mind

There are no exams to mind, anymore,

at least for sometime.

Be ready to climb one more ladder

Make it your priceless ambition.

I wish you all the best, buddy

(Dedicated to my friend Mary Das from JB, Malaysia)

This poem was written for me by Cyclopseven Ram

Thank you my dear friend.

In the presence of you my Lord
with tears in my eyes
I humble myself to you
showers me my dear Lord
with the brightest light of yours
I fear.......
the absence of you my Lord
may darken my days and nights.

Forgotten friend II

My dear northern most friend
I miss you a lot
just the thought of you
brought tears in my eyes
have you forgotten me
or....
keeping a distance from me
or....
have I become the old book
kept in the dark corner
or....
have I become a worthless friend
or....
have you become a stone hearted friend
my dear friend....
I missed the old version of you
please come clear it again
and....
a request from me
leave a little space for me
in your thoughts, my friend.((

The thorns......
look like flower buds
in love I am.

Transference of thought fails?

Where are you my friend
need you the most
where are you my friend
am in the dark
telepathy.........
don't you sense it this time
the hell am going through
sympathy is not what I need
sorry is not what I need
just a few words of care
lessen the pain am going through.

Intruder

History repeats…..2004
he once more
why?
coming into my life
giving me the sorrows
giving me the pain
giving me the torture
cripples my mind
cripples my thought
cripples my appetite
pain piercing into my bones
piercing into my joints
limits my movements
leaving me helpless
why?
is he here again….
as a reminder?
reminds me of you my Lord
as a reminder…….?
reminds me of my nearing time my Lord
as a reminder……?
reminds me of my sins my Lord
take him away from me my Lord
I have long forgotten about him
he came without invitation
he my forever enemy
he……..the ‘arthritis’

Why?

My dear friend.....
why the silence?
I know not
speak up........
for I will understand
My dear friend.......
why the coldness?
I know not
share with me
for i will enlighten your burden
My dear friend........
trust me
for I will be a shoulder to lean
My dear friend.........
why the silence?
It's killing me
why the coldness?
It's breaking my heart
heart bleeding in pain
tears rolling down on my cheeks
still wondering.......why?

Circle (Mandalas)

Symbolic
intriguing
ultimate perfection
three in one
mandalas.......
wordless journey
into minds deepest mysteries
no beginning
no ending
it's magical
mandalas......
protects a sacred space
one finds tranquility
one finds peace
mandalas.......
wheel of life
tunnel between
present world
and
world to come
mandalas......
symbol of eternity.

It hurts

.......when a stranger
throws words on your face
it's still acceptable
couldn't careless
but.......
........when a friend
throws words on your face
it's terrible
it's humilating
it's embarrasing
tears keep rolling
heart keeps sinking
heart starts bleeding
it's very hurting.

Life

Life........
a piece of plain canvas
some colours needed
to colour the life
some touches needed
to give life to the lives.

Helpless

Journey in the morning
with a heavy heart
tears rolling down on my cheeks
no one to sympathize
no one to empathize
journey in the morning
to my destination
at a time
almost meet the end
with divine help
I survived
journey in the morning
with thick fear and worries
what awaits him today
my Lord.......
please guide him
give him the strength
help him overcome
his shortcomings
my Lord.......
when is the end?
what is the end?

Life

Life is a struggle
some struggle......
to achieve their goals in life
others simply struggle
to survive in this world
world full of obstacles
Life is a struggle
in this world of materialism
you and I mostly struggle.....
to be accepted
to accept and
love one another
Life is a struggle
to human belongs the struggle
to God the outcome
keep on struggling
leave the outcome to God.

You deserve it

Man of courage and dignity
Admire your inner qualities
Heart full of love and honey
Every word sweet like cherries
Never will I forget you buddy
Divine love, grace and glories
Right here to make you merry
A hope 42nd birthday memories
Never will fade my dear buddy.

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR FRIEND"
"LOVE YOU ALWAYS MY FRIEND"

In tears

waiting......
your arrival i await
I am in tears
e-mail inbox overflows
I am in tears
sms keeps coming
I am in tears
festive seasons come and go
I am in tears
my house has no visitors
I am in tears
my house is always empty
I am in tears
I am the post box in tears.

Given up

All alone
I'm driving
along the highway I'm speeding
know not where I'm leading
along my sorrows I'm taking
my Lord so loving
let my mind stop thinking
let my heart stop beating
let it be the ending.
( It is a repost)

Light

Beyond the darkness
there is a light
a light of hope
a light of life
a light of future
but........
will it......
give the hope
will it.....
light the path
will it.....
brighten the life
let alone decide

Unspoken words

A smile of yours.......
gives a glow to thousand hearts
but........
behind the smiles
hidden some sorrows
unsolved sorrows

Unfortunate

When the storm came...
hopes just shattered...
when the sun rose...
none is gifted.

Origin

Where am I from?
if not from you
where am I belong to?
if not to you
you.....the soil.

Shattered dreams

Mum....
in your eyes so much sorrow
in your words so much pain
hidden within the sorrow
a smile without a glow
a life without a flow
i know mum......
it's not easy though.

Lost

Lost.......
in the journey of life
I died
and
don't ask me why.

Free me

My Lord.....
take away my thoughts
for I don't wish to sin
my Lord.....
take away my heart
for I wish to die
my Lord.....
take away my life
for I don't wish to live.

Miserable thoughts

Gloomy kind of feelings
suddenly came....
lingering into my mind
darkening my today
darkening my thoughts
I realise
it's the thought of you
I was alive yesterday
it's the thought of you
that kills my today
it's the thought of you
I hate you for today
it's the thought of you
I am dead today.

Maya

Maya......
you the colourful mirage
you make the people dance
dance to your tune
you make them drown in the pleasure of sense
you make their intellect completely spent
maya......
you fill them with anger and lust
you cunningly trap the people
in their own costumes
make them forget their own forms
forget where do they come from
you grind them in grinding wheel of sorrow
but....why?

Reality awaits

Living in paradise
a human creation
world filled with materialism
desired beautiful figures
beautiful clothings
those are women today
desired speed cars
gigantic furnished apartments
those are men today
desired a virtual environment
everything worked by computers
those are young ones today
is this the real world?
is this where we want to live in?
where there is no love
there is no God
fame and fortune you gather on earth
is this a promise?
will take you else where?
heaven awaits you
share your riches with the poor
nothing is gained without pain
for there is no bread without work
God's grace you have talent
God's hand you have strength
share God's love you have peace
share your life
be a shining star
nothing beyond God
let there be hope
a hope for new changes
let there be prayers
for the end is visible.

No time

Knock, knock, knock
anyone in there?
hello, hello, hello
can anyone lend me your ears?
busy! busy! busy!
everyone seems to be busy
busy with life
busy with work
forgot to live
forgot to live the life
lame excuses are they
where is everyone leading?
top of the world?
fame?
satisfaction?
what not?
what more?
what a boring life.

Mere words

Meaning of words differ
some spelt the same
some spelt differently
SORRY
and
THANK YOU
two different words
two different meanings
social expressions are they
magic words are they
losing their magicness
mere words are they?

Puppet dance

puppet

is what man is

attach with strings

strings of habits

cannot be given up

strings of emotions

love, joy, hate, fear and grief

puppet

is what man is

attach with strings

strings of passions

suffering and death

strings of senses

sight, hearing, smell, taste and touch

puppet

is what man is

dance to his own bidding

bind the soul

cripple the mind
live just a while

come and go

in the Lord's cosmic drama.

Divine friendship

divine friendship......
what exactly it is?

found everywhere?

cannot be

see everyday?

cannot be

feel have known always

maybe

divine friendship......
what exactly it is?

divine impulse......?

yes, definitely is

express unconditional love

deep down from the heart
divine friendship......
what exactly it is?

divine love......?
yes, absolutely is

unconditional, real and lasting

investing the love

without compulsion
(specially dedicated to my divine friend)

Forgotten friend

friends......

old friends

new friends

some say......

friends are

but

books alike

old books

new books

old books......

thoroughly been explored

lost the interest

dumped into darkness

thrown to some corners

new books......

touched often

interest grows

so much to learn

so much to explore

an old book

am I

dumped into darkness

thrown to some corners

thought comes

once in a while

a few chapters

flipped a while

back again into darkness

back again to the corners

an old book

am I

am hurt

I cry

in the heart

I die.

The wonder of creator

Nothing......
that's how it started
black, cold and empty
that's how it was
then came the dazzling light
filled the darkness bright
land, sea and sky
amazing is the word to describe
earth burst into life
seed-popping plants
sweet-smelling flowers
budding and blooming
springing and sprouting
sun in the day
moon at night
amazing is the word to describe
then came the wild creatures
chasing and racing
grunting and growling
roaring and howling
singing and chirping
music to the ears
amazing is the word to describe
then came Adam and Eve
share the wonderful creation
looking after the world for him
amazing is the word to describe
in six days everything is done.

Transformation of life

Once.....life was beautiful
full of love and laughter
life was sweet
life was simple
life was like a heaven
Now.....
life is hideous
full of hatred and tears
life is bitter
life is complicated
life is like a hell
Future.....
what life will be?
he has the answer
who is he?
only he knows
where is he?
he keeps watching.

Inspiration

A fresh morning
A fresh new day
jumps out from the bed
feeling light and bright
the fresh smell of the earth
flowing deep into my veins
the chirping of the birds
music to my ears
the beautiful sky
with patterns and designs
the fresh green sceneries
soothing to the eyes
a fresh morning
a fresh day
it's a promise
it's a hope.